What if he reads it??

This blog thing is sort of an experiment for me.  I want to try to write every day, although I'm starting to think once a week might be more realistic.  Anyway, I didn't take time to think about what I wanted this to be before I started posting things.

The process was something like this:

1. Wow I have a lot of thoughts, maybe I should write them down
2. Oh!! Look at that, I just started a blog. How unexpected.  
3. Huh.... I wrote things on the internet and now people are reading those things
4. Geez, maybe I should consider what that means....

Again, this started as an exercise.  An experiment.  Now that the experiment has begun and things are in motion it seems like I'll just have to wait and see what comes out of it.
 
I told my sister-in-law (via email) that I started a blog.  She responded right away with a lot of excitement, and encouraged me to share it with my brother as well.  A couple minutes later she emailed me again, "I just started reading, but, on second thought, maybe you shouldn't share this with your brother."  And I think she's probably right.  My brother and I are close, and he's pretty open minded, but there are something's that are probably better left unsaid between siblings.

Some of my friends started reading my blog and very quickly were able to recognize some of the people and situations I refer to in my posts.  Some of them probably even recognized themselves.  Many of these friends were curious about who I was sharing this blog with, who had read it, and what the reaction was.  Very quickly I realized that I had absolutely no idea, but it was worth considering.

While I haven't included any identifying information, since I'm writing this blog based on my life and experiences, and am therefore writing about real people and real events, people are definitely going to be able to recognize themselves.  So far there hasn't been any negative feedback about this, but I'm pretty sure that, at some point, someone is going to read something that they don't like reading. 

If you're a guy, and we've dated, something from our relationship will likely make the blog, and I'm not sure how well that's going to go over.  To be perfectly honest, I'm actually not too concerned about what guys might read on this blog, but maybe I should be.  I'd like to think that I would be able to say any of these things directly to any guy I've dated, but I'm not sure if that's really true.

On a related note, I started thinking about what happens when I start dating a brand new guy and he starts reading my blog.  I imagine it would be weird to read about how the girl you just started dating feels about the relationship.  This new guy will also get to hear about my feelings on a lot of things both related and unrelated to our relationship.  I'm not sure how finding out all this information up front might impact things, but imagine it could be a lot to take in.

I admit, writing this blog was not a very well thought out decision.  Sometimes I'm impulsive as it turns out.  Anyway, I hope that people enjoy reading my blog, because I definitely enjoy writing it.

So.... what if he reads it?? Well, hopefully any of the men this "he" could reference will understand, and will be able to enjoy the blog should they choose to read it.  And who knows, they just might learn something :)

I always encourage people to be themselves.  Even if you're a little weird, I think it's important to be yourself in the most genuine way possible.  This blog is me.  These stories are mine.  I guess I have to take my own advice and be comfortable putting my truth out into the world.  We'll see what happens.